“My lungs gasp for breath and my chest contracts
They try to steal what remains of my will
Break me to the point that where I once ran I crawl
My vision of life becomes a mirage
And the tears fall like shattered rainbows
As if the gods themselves have cast their stones
I wail in the night that comes to bathe me
Wondering how many times midnight will chime”
From Dancing with Demons, by Bernette Sherman
We all go through periods when it’s hard to see the light or believe we’re on the right path. That was me not so long ago. I was looking at my life and feeling an overwhelming sense of, “F&*@ It! None of what I’m doing matters. Why bother?!”
I was ready to throw in the towel when Spirit spoke to me and reminded me of something that in my time of distress I’d nearly forgotten. I’m a spiritual being and this is a very human experience. As a spiritual being trying to bring light to the world I’m a beacon for those who are seeking light AND those who don’t want light to shine. I was reminded of a few lines originally from the poem Rise Again (Night to Dawn) in my book Resist Persist.
“Midnight in the garden of my inner world
Wrestle woman! Fight back! I yell
Lips unparted, as I crawl through hell”
This experience showed me several things and put me on the path to shifting my own consciousness so that what was plaguing me would be gone. Something had to give. I began working the three tools that form the foundation for Creating Miracles after my near breakdown. I didn’t know if or how it would work – only that I needed it to. I couldn’t continue crying myself to sleep and having thoughts about quitting.
I realized that lightworkers threaten the dark side. While I won’t go into the how;, the goal is to keep us from walking in our power. The idea of being attacked pissed me off. It wasn’t the first time and because I’m stronger than I was a little kid, the attack was different but this time, I had other tools to fight back.
What I understand is that when we are under that kind of spiritual attack, we are distracted and divided. When you are in that state of mind you are not able to use your full creative power and tap into the miraculous. Your energy is being used up battling or being depleted by the energetic vampires. My latest book Protect and Clear with the Divine is the direct result of realizing that not everyone has the tools and may be able to pray those prayers and say those affirmations to protect what they care about and clear out the negative. How can I help people grow spiritually and manifest the life they want when they are constantly in this kind of battle?
I used the tools I share in Creating Miracles and within a few days was seeing results. My mood was lighter and I stopped questioning whether my life meant something in this reality. Spirit told me that there are others who needed the prayers and affirmations I’d been writing and putting together for myself, friends, and clients; because others were battling too.
I was hesitant at first. Honestly, there are those who think I am strange already. Did I really want to add this on? The answer was an unequivocal yes, compounded by the message of a southern preacher I channeled for one of our Spirit Speaks sessions, called (Mama) Maybelle. She spoke about how too many of us don’t share our truth because of judgment from man. She was right. I was convicted. I couldn’t keep what I know and what I am learning to myself. That would be selfish and certainly not in line with one of the affirmations used in Creating Miracles.
So when I was led to put together the Creating Miracles program and write the Protect and Clear with the Divine book my purpose while two-fold was also very much in line with helping people have a better life. To do that, you must be free and open to the infinite possibilities of an infinite universe.
I am open to those infinite possibilities and want that for others as well. If you missed the pilot study, there will be a similar, but independent program at a discounted rate after the new year and you can also take advantage of the individual program. I recognize the power that lies within each and every one of us and when we access that power and channel it in ways that are right for us, we really can create miraculous experiences.
What is possible for you when you open up to the infinite possibilities of an infinite universe?
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